.x.Our Past. Our Present. Our Future.x.

Friday, December 31, 2010, 12:10 AM

wifey, sorry.. thought it was a very very small issue..
but end up otherwise..
sorry.. sorry i hurt you, sorry i made u cry.. i didnt mean it..

sorry for not steeping in ur shoe..
next time i will before doing anything n i will eventually tell u whatever even though its something minor..
i told u before communication is important in a relationship.. sory.. i didnt do a good job on that.. i will change.. i am sorry..
its new year eve liao.. our very 1st new year.. lets put all the unhappiness behind us and look forward to a brand new year k? hmmm..

I love you..

Ur love,
Vosty

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Thursday, December 30, 2010, 9:31 AM

Ya.. I asked you to leave..
But u can say that u wanna stay and peii me for something like that de mahh...
U ASKED me to open door for u..
Ok lorr.. U get wad u wan coz u requested for it..
See, i dont hold ppl back... u should know.. i will let u leave... juz like before..

Dont u think yesterday situation has become like when im wif him ??
When me and him quarrelled, i asked him to leave..
He left and came back..
I thought his gonna accompany me but instead he said he left something behind and juz wanna get it only..
Yupp.. its the same... SAME situation..

To be honest...
When i asked u not to delete her.. i wasnt very happy when i said that..
Coz deep down i really wish that u were more persistant in saying that u will delete her or dont mind deleting..
But u didnt.. Seems like u really dun wish to uh..??
Nvm lorrr... Its fine wif me now.. Really..
If u were to ask me again, i would still say its ok.. Dont delete her.. Dont change for the sake of me..
But i wouldn't be happy.. Stuck rite ??

Its because of this that made me feel damn pekchek..
Plus u asked to get the door for u.. ok.. Pekchek X 2..!!

I felt damn uncertain because.. U like me back coz u realised i've changed..
And its fate that brought us back together..
What makes u so sure that u wont like her back if u realised she've changed to something u like ?
And then probably its fate again..
Besides, u also didnt know that me and u would actually meet up again in the first place rite..??
Fate?? Anything can happen..

Love is selfish..
And if its not mine..
I dont wan it either..`
Xue

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it was really unintentionally doing all those retweets.. I find the sentences meaningful, that's why I retweet.. Nth else.. Wifey, I can assure u, nth is going on really..
Ur the only 1 I wan n have now.. Ur my everything.. I believe time is important to us. Building trust n etc is a very important thing in our relationship..

I am kinda sad n it felt like a knife went through my heart when u ask me to go away n shoo me off.. When I ask u to get the door for me when I am leaving, u hurried n did that.. At that moment, I blamed myself.. To make u feel this sadness.. The cheerful n laughing wifey is not here anymore..

I dun mind getting hurt but I wan u to be happy..

Lastly, trust me ok, I know its difficult.. But she n I is the past le.. That's all.. Nth much.. Ur my life now..
So hmmm. Wifey sorry to let u suffer.. Really sorry. I dun bear to see u like this..

Vosty.

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Wednesday, December 29, 2010, 8:25 PM

真的，很不想理你。。
我很不开心。。
为什么要让我有这样的感觉。。
我讨厌你让我有这样的感觉。。
可是因为这也不是你要的，所以我很无奈。。
不懂我在 blog 什么。。

`__mEmo~~Riies~~.oF.^euu.N.^mE

Hmmm..
Sorry..
Just 1 more issue..

Noticed that u both are following TheLoveStories.
And noticed that both u retweet a few of the same post.
Juz wondering, won't she have weird ideas ??
Afterall, she did asked u if she's not happy wif her current bf, can she come back to u...?
And u juz kept quiet..

I dunno what will be ur reply now IF she were to ask u again..
I dun wan to know too.. pls.. im scared..
Not now.. dont lemme know now...

I'm really sorry..
I choose to believe that u are doing this unintentionally..
U wont wan to hurt me..
BUT.. If u were me in this kind of situation, u really wont feel anything ??

I know I think too much.
But trust, its not gonna come in a day or two..
Let me know if u cant handle me..
I'll give in..

Luckily we didn't rush to get rings..
Coz from past experiences, quarrels and arguments will always follow next when juz got rings..
Think we get it after we are more stable bahh..
I dun wan my worst nightmare to come true..

Sad`
Xue

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是闷闷不乐的..

Didnt really wan to let u know de..
Coz i think its really not worth mentioning..
And i dun wan u to change anything abt urself bcoz of me.
I REPEAT - I REALLY DUN WAN U TO CHANGE URSELF BCOZ OF ME....

As mentioned, had dinner wif Hubb and moii family yesterday..
Was really happpie..
Until i accidently saw your Twitter when ur abt to tweet something..
Remembered that u said when ur still with *her, u wanted to add her in twitter but she dun wan and even ask u for wad.. -.-"
Now that ur not together le, she wanna add u back but u kinda hesitated..
I have a impression that u wont accept her request.. But u did..
I was juz wondering if u ever gonna tell me, thus asked u if u got anything to tell me..
But it seems that these kind of thing isnt worth mentioning to me as well too i guessed..

Juz feel that I told u everything thats going on in my life - my colleagues, friends, events, outing, work, family, *HIM (especially) and all the other random stuffs..
But u..... haixxxxxxxx~

I have a confession...
Coz u added ur twitter account in my ipod, i went and took a sneak peek on *her..
Juz like u log in to my fb and check out on Darren but in a way, its kinda different..
Ermmm.. Nth much actually..
Juz felt that, u really dont find it worth mentioning to me abt her and all or rather,
u hardly talk to me abt her..
Sorry about this..

*Oopss.. forgot to mention that i deleted ur twitter a/c from my ipod..
coz i dun wan to intrude ur privacy anymore..
So we now fair liao arhh.. -.-"*

Happen to notice that u change ur BBM status as well..
Made me feel insecure too..
Yes.. mentioned to u before, i will feel inferior easily..
Really, i dont have confident...
Im SORRY..

Wished that i didnt saw his twitter a/c`
Xue

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Tuesday, December 28, 2010, 3:28 PM

Everytime listen to 周杰倫- 蒲公英的约定,
will always be reminded of the first time i go ur hse(for the time for now) to watch that movie.
First time(for now) go ur hse i was abit nervous lorrrr..
Dont say until i like no fear horrr.. Hahaha..

But the fewwwwling was....
SWWEETT !!
I like~
Hahahaha...

Really felt this song back then..
When we still very 曖昧.. (lolxxx)
Especially the part where he sings:
你是友情, 还是错过的爱情..
Awwwww~
Remembered u saw my post on Twitter and u asked me so what is it..
I couldn't answer u.. Coz i realllllllly dunnnnoooo....
Awwwwwwwwww...~

I can't remember wad show we watched after that..
Harry Potter ? HAHA.. But makes no sense to me too..
Coz i was busy watchin u or doing someother things..
LOL~

Really, love you lots hubb..
Happpppieee worrr..
Later hubb gonna dinner wif me and moiii farmeellii...

S-excited with love`
Xue

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Monday, December 27, 2010, 4:03 PM

I would occasionally be reminded of that night.
Kinda missed that night.
Haha..

Don't think too much Hubb..
I'm referring to that night when we stood at Merlion Park infront of One Fullerton talking and chatting abt our dreams and goals and ambitions and every other things..

I still remember that u wanted to take snap some night scenes photos there.
I would looooove to accompany u Hubb..
Heex !!

Random Part 1
Yesterday Elaine was saying Peppy's skin condition like not getting any better.
Keep saying want to bring Peppy to vet but in the end also never.
I asked Mummy is she free to go today or not.
She said : dunno, den asked is Vincent free ?
I replied : nope, he got something on today.
She asked : why no..?
I replied : no means no larrr.. Duhh.. Ppl cannot have something on mehh ?
HAHA..
Moral of this conversation is, my Mummy acknowledge u le larrrr..
Heeheeheee~

Random Part 2
Today during meeting, Shraffy asked me when am i going to Bintan.
Told him Jan 22-23.
He asked me going wif who.
I said: Vincent !!
He replied : hmmm, ok, i feel that he's a nice guy.
I asked: what makes u think so?
He replied : Just feel soooo lorrrr... Can i go with him instead ? so i'll be sleeping with him..
I replied : Yaya ! Sure..! If u wanna pay $200+ and not getting any thing..
He replied : Got wad.. I got Vincent wad.. He very shui bian wan rite ?
I replied sarcastically : YAYA !! *roll eyes..
Moral of this conversation is, Shraffy likes you !!
LOL !!!
Loves lots lots`
Xue

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Saturday, December 25, 2010, 1:13 PM

Wooohooo... MERRY Christmas My LOVE!!!!
Our 1st Christmas..
U got me A Adidas JAcket which we both agreed on! woohoo...

u went for medicure n pedicure..
a pressie from me to you.. i transfered $ to kym.. wanted to give u hahah..
n got u a MIKEY PLUSHIE which u saw the other time..
told me u like it a lot..haha...

hmm.. WA SEH, u u two scare me the hell out of me when u say u two quarrel la.. wa lao eh..
my eyebrow is like going vertical mode after i receive ur msg ..lolx.. but lucky everything was a SCAM! SCAM SCAM SCAM..lolx...

we had fun joy n laughter throughout the night..
i hope u like the gift i got for u n hope u did enjoy urself...

Baby i Love you.. More christmas to come.. :)

Love,
SandRose

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Thursday, December 23, 2010, 11:55 AM

Meant for you Hubby !!

想你, 想你, 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说, 却害怕都说错
好喜欢你知不知道..

Loves`
Xue

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010, 11:04 AM

Colleague asked me about you yesterday.
Asked about how we met and how we got together.

Replied her that i've known u for abt 6yrs already.
Been together once but then broke up coz u left me for *her.
After 5yrs of being with *him, broke up and then somehow started we started to get back together.

She asked me : Aren't u afraid that he might get back together with *her again ?

My reply : No, not scared.

She replied : Wow.. How come ?

My reply : Coz got confident..

But somehow i dont feel confident when i said that.
I'm still scared..
Was browsing *her FB profile too while i was damn bored during the gathering..
*She got bangs as well ?
Is that why the reason u like bangs ?
U said *she said i look cute..
But *she's pretty as well..
I feel kinda inferior.. I feel inferior easily.

I know i shouldn't be mad at u over yesterday incident for too long.
Coz i know u dont mean it too.
But somehow, i cant help it.
Sorry.. I can be quite unreasonable/ridiculous/unpredictable at times..

Regret ??

Sighhhh`
Xue

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Didn't go for bb's poly frend event/outing..
Kinda weird if I went, I think..
They know the existence of "him".. And like within a few weeks bb gt me..
I just dun wan ppl to talk bad about you bb.. That's all I wished for, that's why I dun wanna go..
I know its a matter of time but hmmm I hope u get what I mean..

Sorry if I really upset u n put u in a very difficult position.. I dun mean it.. Really..
I will attend ur next outing or event k.. I will..

Sorry and I love you..

:(

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Tuesday, December 21, 2010, 8:14 PM

Tonight, its one of those nights, where I really want u here, in these events, in my life..

But u are not here..

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Monday, December 20, 2010, 1:49 PM

Im a happppy girl !!

Got my 3 BBBB !! (More and more B)
- BurBerry Bag and its in BLACK !! (wooots)
- BlackBerry Bold and its in BLACK tooo !! (wooots)
- BaoBeii huBBy (Definitely not black - LOL)

Went gai gai wif hubby, his sis and his sis' bf..
Hubby bought TOYS and i bought BURBERRY BAG..
Psycho-ed hubby's sis to buy Burberry bag coz she also aimed for that bag since ages...~
*bring me home bring me home ^-^*

Hubb said yesterday we like go for road march like that...
Walked almost like 4hrs straight (got rest abit in between)..
Super tired but happppy~

Mish Mish my hubby now..
He went gai gai wif his mummy..
Dunno later got plans to go out or not.. =X
Like a boring at home now..
Juz finished transferring songs over to phone..

Hmmmm hmmmmm..
Might be transferring these blog to Tumblr le bahh..
Tumblr seems better..
But lazy to transfer.. HAHA..
Procrastinate bahh.. Bleahsss..

Love`
Xue~

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Thursday, December 16, 2010, 5:26 PM

Hey Bb girl, no worries ok.. things will remain as it is when i start schooling..
my last burst for the cert..

will plan my time well.. will not neglect u.. dun worry ok..
mood swing will be over, sad time will be over.. just dun think too much ok..

am glad to see u blog. telling me how u feel.. will spent more time with u ok.. u r my priorty now.. not gaming not anything else but u..
i just wan the best out of us.. so hav faith ok.. we will work things out..

hope u get ur bbm ready by today.. then we can blast it off!.. bb dun feel insecure in our relationship k..
if u feel so means u lose 1/2 the battle liao.. will spent more time with u de ok..
u seem kinda low this few days, n i think i am the reason..
if i did anything wrong or anything which makes u feel insecure, U MUST TELL ME OK?

We can talk and we will talk things out..
I dun wan history repeating itself..

Love,
Vost

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Tired..
Didnt sleep well..
Naughty Peppy disturb me..
Jump onto my bed and walk abt den jump off den go roam around the room den chase her toys - ball ball..
Den walked over to my desk under the blue cabinet den did something stupid..
Camera xiao mei pouch string was at the side of the table, Peppy stood up (i didnt know she is tall enuff to reach that table already.. grrrs..) and bite it and pull it down..
Camera xiao mei landed with a loud thud and woke me up..
Whacked Peppy in the wee morning but i think she didnt really care and seems like not scared.. grrrsss !!
Too tired to try to scare her so went back to sleep but im still pissing off...
Hope camera xiao mei isnt damaged..
Haven checked yet coz dont wan to waste a film and got nth and nobody to take a picture with.

Hmmmm... So still kinda like a bad day for me..
Think never sleep properly.. Back kinda pain.. PAIN !!
Grrrsss...

This feeling.. I dun like it..
This insecure feeling.. I hate it..

Yes.. I'm emo-ing...

Haix`
Xue

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Yupp.. Time of the month.. Period.. Sians !!

Having abit of a serious moodswing lately..

Hubby was here at my place yesterday.
Felt happy coz mummy kinda acknowledge his presence yet annoyed coz my BBP not up yet and can\t use BBM..
Damn.. juz lemme use my BBM already !!
Had craving for Swensen ice cream for some sugar-rush but decided to forget abt it coz i was really tired at that moment and kinda no mood..
And indeed, mood turned for the worst.
Was hoping tmr will be a better day but..... NOT..

Had really bad cramps the whole day.
Hubby was sick.
Meeting Mas for dinner.
If not for the long postponed dinner wif Mas, i would have go visit Hubb..
Sorry Hubb, neglected you..

Dinner wif Mas was good coz we bitched on everything esp work & colleagues..
Felt damn good coz she understands..
Mood kinda brighten when met up wif Mas..
Was really down the whole day..
Wanted to talk to Hubb but guess he need his rest and so, wouldnt want to disturb his peace wif my yappings..

Went home alone and suddenly felt that uncanny uncertainty feeling.. Its bad.. I dont like..
He's starting sch soon and he's gonna work.
Me too, starting sch soon and i am working as well.
Will we still have the time to meet?
Will i feel uneasy when ur not wif me?
Will i feel uneasy when u didnt sms me for a long time?
Because im scared.. Because im afraid now - that i dun really know u..

ARghh.. im blabbering i guess..
This post too long with rubbish le..
Time to sleep.. Hope tmr really will be a better day for me..

Misses`
Xue

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Wednesday, December 15, 2010, 5:39 PM

I feel kinda low because i find that i didn't acc Bb this few days.. hmm..

and today, headache.. arhx.. i hate headacheS.. didnt really msg my bb.. really not feeling well sia..

HATE THIS FEELING..

needa do my sch work too.. haiz.. Super sianz..

MISH MY BAOBEI!
hav fun with Mas k.. :)

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Monday, December 13, 2010, 1:08 AM

Bb came over for dinner today..
Watched Gladiator by Russell Crowe.. Maximus~ Maximus~

Must be wondering why this girl likes violent show?
because, whatever i know, i wan her to know too.. :)

Discuss about some sensitive issue.. She got her point, i got my point.. But the Goal is Similar..
I love it.. The Future Awaits.. :)

After all, I am Happy..

`__mEmo~~Riies~~.oF.^euu.N.^mE

Sunday, December 12, 2010, 10:46 AM

Oh My God..
BB gt me a Blackberry Bold 9700.. a Couple Phone..
never in my life i did receive such an expensive gift b4...
am Happy but at the same time kinda "pain".. cause its not cheap..
wow.. woohooo.. we got ourself a couple phone..

Can BBM!! weeee...
haha.. bb changing her line from M1 to SuckHub too.. keke..
And yesterday the suckhub man like a blurr blurr 1... charge wrong $ amount.. lucky i go check.. bleahx..
wanna eat my baby ah.. i m there w her loooo.. so he should try harder.. lolx..
I AM TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN LOH.. Roar!!

Anyway, bb Mom's sick.. so she gotta acc her.. such a good girl i got myself.. Hope She is Getting better..
hmmm..
one Couple item down.. few more to go..
:)

Lets Save Save Save.. :)
I wanna graduate Fast!!!

P.S: I Love You

Love,
Vost

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Hoooray !!
Salary was in yesterday night..
The Blackberry Bold 9700 which i have been aiming for i can finally get it together with Darr..
Whooohooo~

Some stupid annoying issues happened when called up M1 to check on a few things and that is when i realllly had enuff of damn M1..
Seriously, it sucks big time..

Anyway, still very happy that we've got BB now...
Just loving it.. (Its charging now.. *grins*)

Hmmm.. Mishhing Darr lots now.. He's out with his Fantastic 4 gang..
Mummy ishh sick, if not i guess i would wanna follow ??
Sighh.. Moreover today ish Mummy'y bday too, so all the more shouldn't leave her alone..

And in reply to Darr's previous post,
I dun feel neglected when ur playing SF4 Darr, in fact i like it that ur playing !!
HAHAHA.. Dun think too much ok ?? DUN even think about cutting down on playing..
Of coz, i enjoyed myself tooo yesterday.. Heex..
But i'll make sure that i'll cut down on my vulgarities and swearing.. =X
SORRRRIIIIEEEE~~~

Alrighty, guess that's about it..
Mishhes-
Xue

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Saturday, December 11, 2010, 4:49 AM

Our "Zero" Anniversary Outing..

Went to NEX at Serangoon.. nothing much there though.. more food stall outlets than Retails.. There is Party World , Shaw House And Virtual-Land.. Side by side.. Best Combi Ever..

Bb loves to Sing, so do i.. can go there for our Ktv Session next time.. closer to our home too.. :)
always feel that bb is being neglected when i am playing sf.. Hmm.. Maybe i should just cut down on playing..hmmm..

Minds Cafe outing w Johnson n Kym after NEX..
Had a great time at Prinsep Street.. Laugh Non stop.. shall go take a look at board games tml before my Basketball session.. Pictionary and Taboo..haha..

Tangled was the last activity we had today.. A last min decision by the 4 of us.. :)

I Spent my Day Well Today.. W Bb n Fantastic 2..
Hope Bb feel the same too.. :)

I Have A New Dream Now..
~You're My Dream Come True~

Love,
Vost

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Friday, December 10, 2010, 3:39 AM

Memory Capture Equipment

~Bb using her Fuji Polaroid Mini Instax 7 Camera

~Vost using his Nikon D90

`__mEmo~~Riies~~.oF.^euu.N.^mE

Just completed our Lord Of The Ring Trilogy.
The day the question is ask and answered.
Our love,our story.

I will know n seek the things u know which I dun.
Although I m not perfect, but I will never stop trying.

I just love the way you are.
Our paper is plain white, let us fill it with colour from now on.

p.s: I Love You
Happy "0" Anniversary.

Vost

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Thursday, December 9, 2010, 5:27 PM

Hi Darr,

I remembered that you ever mentioned to me about creating our own diary to write down our thoughts/how we feel and exchange between us so that we know what our 'opponent'(HAHAHA) is thinking/feeling..

But since we are sooooo IT-savvy, so i thought of starting a blog instead..!!
HeeeHeeeee~

So from 10/12/10 onwards, lets put in effort to fill this blog with our memoriiies okies ??
MUACKS !!

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